Nowhere. Some days just feel like this. The feeling that your wheels are spinning or you have ceased to be productive. I believe it is our brains or inner self putting on the brakes. My inside is screaming HALT while the world continues to flow at it's break neck pace. Nowhere. The place that isn't on the map. The place that you run out of gas. The place you are when you are waiting for a call from your doctor. Not that it is a terrible place to be, for a visit. Maybe for a layover. Certainly not to stay.
Nowhere. Is the place that others refuse to let you be. It makes them uncomfortable. They don't know what to do or how to help. It is a impossible state to explain to those who have never been and overwhelming to those who have.
My Nowhere is cloudy with a chance of sun. It is my retreat. Not a place that I take myself but, a place that I am taken to when the need arises. My mind, body and soul can feel the pull to Nowhere like a junkie to a drug. I often fight the impulse to go then pay a price. That price is that I stay Nowhere longer. Longer than I want, longer than my family deserves and longer than my friends can tolerate.
Nowhere can turn a extrovert into a hermit. That is it's job. It hears the cries to halt before you do. It responds to the need. It takes me and I am grateful. For the moments in Nowhere(no matter how frustrating) are a time of renewal. I don't always give in or go along with the plan and I still end up Nowhere.
Nowhere is not a derogatory term. It is all in how you arrive.
2 comments:
the way you describe nowhere is so beautiful and poetic...
but i know the place as well.
and just because it fits and makes sense--and as silly as it is, a line from 'the love guru'(because i thought it was rather clever) about 'nowhere' being 'now here.'
being present, in our minds, bodies and souls--wherever you are...even when you are in the middle of Nowhere.
i find it perfect that you can envision Nowhere~Now here. <3
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