Fairness~Hope~Peace

for Natalie, Nina & Helen. But, mostly for you Leslie, I miss you everyday.

her son:    www.flickr.com/photos/zimza/244180623/

her daughter:    www.flickr.com/photos/zimza/244180625/

a little of her story:    www.flickr.com/photos/zimza/2534747041/

There are times in our lives when we will question the "fairness" of life. The what, how & why that follow something that leaves us frightened and empty. For me, I see those times as few.

Plain & simple, life is not fair.

There is starvation, disease, murder, death, poverty, (physical, sexual & verbal) abuse, accidents, birth defects, mental defects and a whole laundry list of things that I've left out.

Our world is defective, as a people we are defective and or future looks defective.

There have been events in my life that have made me see things as more of a realist. I know those things are out there and that I am not immune. When tragic situations unfold, I am one that reacts. I see what needs to be done and do it. I now see that behavior as a form of self preservation.

I will never change who I am or how I handle crisis. But, I will begin to explain my feelings to others to allow them to understand my protective "bubble".

Along, with my health issues, I have lost my share of family & friends. One friend that made a incredible impact on me was Leslie. She was a creative intellect. Scattered, cerebral, wacky & lovely. She lost her 2 year battle with breast cancer 4 years ago. She left behind an amazing husband, and two beautiful children.

With this post I can feel her here and believe that I can finally understand why she held out hope until she was gone. Hope is the only thing we have when everything else has been stripped away.

I hope for the planet, for the human race, for peace, for my child, for life.